Author Archives: Arun

Break-ups

We have been here before
Year after year, over and over
Perhaps it was my pride
That things will work out
But any way I walk, any turn I take
We’ll only fall apart.
And no one’s ever right
Neither you nor me
The sea and the sky never meet.
I know I’ve been foolish each time
You wanted to step out
And I held you back.
It’s time to return nowhere.
I know it’s late, it’s all on me
And nothing can make up to it.
I’ll carry the cross the same way
I’ve been carrying hope all the time.

The last ride

কেন শুধু মনে হয় শেষ খেয়া বাই বুঝি এই? সন্ধ্যে হলো, ফেরার প্রয়োজন ফুরালো বুঝি আমার… এ কোন অব্যক্ত মুক্তির আনন্দ সব পিছুটানের ব্যাথা ভুলিয়ে দেয়?

Why does this feel like the last sail? As if it’s dusk, and there’s no reason to return anymore… What’s in this inexplicable joy of liberation that shadows the pangs of nostalgia?

Power

Buku (my son) was hitting me yesterday to show the power of his punch. I told him the real power was to control the punch even if he feels like punching someone. He should only show his power when he hits the football. He reiterated, not sure he understood or not.

I am sure as he grows up experience will teach him when to resist and retaliate. But not yet.

The void

I remember infrequently visiting the Golpark Ramakrishna Mission during my engineering days, preferably after the evening prayers. I am an atheist and I didn’t have any question. I preferred to remain unnoticed in a corner and enjoy the tranquillity. I feel the same when I visit the Church during Christmas after the Mass when most visitors had left.

I clearly understand the meaning of that feeling now – it signifies the peace of the void. It takes you beyond nature because your mind is unoccupied, there’s no influence of nature left in it. And that’s the only state of mind where you are more powerful than nature. You aren’t disturbed by life or death or happiness or anger or pride or envy… it’s completeness. The state at the time before nature existed – nothingness.